My Heart is So Full

It has been about a year since my last post and a lot has changed. The most important being the wonderful twin babies girl I brought into this world in April of this year.

My heart is so full!

Before you have kids people say that everything changes when you do. I used to just nod my head and agree like of course it does! You have kids now. But that not really what they mean.

What they are trying to say is that the second your cute little babies look you in the face the world you use to live in dies.

Now every single thing in your life is dedicated to those babies. You would do anything, be anything so that they have a good life.

My heart is so full!

As I sit rocking my baby Áine to sleep I sing her my favorite lullaby. ‘You are my sunshine’ and I can barely make it through the song because all I can think is that its true. She is my sunshine. Her and Aurora are my new axis point. My world revolves around them now in the best of ways!

I would move heaven and earth for them. They are the reason I am here.

My heart is so full!

I didn’t truely know what love was before they arrived. Sure, I love my family and my husband. That love is different than the all consuming love for my children. Things that use to matter before are now nothing compared to receiving my babies smile in the morning. Or rocking them while they are crying. Or having their cute hands wrapped around my finger. I would do anything for them.

The old me died when they came into this world. I shed that person and now I am new with different priorities. A new goal: To make my babies life the best I can.

My heart is so full!

I use to bend over backwards at work trying to make it so that all my work was done as fast as possible. I would stress hard when I made a mistake or that my boss was angry at me over a delay in getting her results. Now its not that I do not care about my professional career. It is more that I can not afford to put that energy into stressing over a job that can replace me in a week. My babies need me on the top of my game.

Now work is a get in and get out as fast as possible. Overtime is a thing of the past! It is stolen glances at pictures of my kiddos. It is watching the clock and getting excited towards the end of the day. It is crossing the threshold into my house and seeing my kids. The joy I feel is real!

My heart is so full!

Today I turn 30. Three decades of life and yet my life just began April 24th 2021. MY HEART IS SO FULL!!!

Published by Choose2BeHappy

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